An Unfettered Expression of My Id

Been percolating this post for a while now. Figured what better day to talk about slavery than July 4th, Independence Day! BOOM!

I’ve always resisted “slave training” or any kind of protocol play because I could never figure out how to realistically make it work, at least in a professional context. Any time I’ve attempted anything close to a “personal slave,” “summoning,” or anything that didn’t fit the “make an appointment, session, tribute” model, I ended up being hugely disappointed. I hated saying, “I want to see you NOW” and being told “Sorry, I can’t.” Once I took someone on explicitly as a service submissive, making clear from the start there’d be minimal, if any, play, only to have him bitch behind my back to anyone who’d listen how I never played with him.

Lately I’ve been thinking, Fuck it. I want to own someone. I want to push someone. Control him. Get him to do things he hates simply because it’s what I want. I want to stop worrying about making him happy or serving his fetish/desire and create a slave that exists primarily to make me happy. My view on “slave training” is much like my view on objectification play: “Come strong, or don’t come at all.” If this is some fetish fantasy pretend thing, then why bother? Book a session and be done with it. It’s a huge pet peeve of mine to be told “I’m your slave! I’ll do anything you want!” and when I name it, be told, “Oh, I can’t do that.”

What I really want is a vehicle to explore my darker fantasies. Long term bondage, caging, and abandonment. Capricious brutality and control. Ritual and/or protocol.  Actual physical punishment (spanking, caning, whipping, face slapping, etc.) for actual slights, transgressions, and hurtful behavior. (How liberating it’d be to be able to smack someone if they said/did something out of line and be done with it instead of having to be polite and swallow it or maturely explain why your feelings were hurt and talk out some sort of resolution or apology!).

I’d require service submission: errands, shopping, fetching, demo bottoming, cleaning,  as well as ritual correspondence/communication, personal maintenance, chastity training/orgasm control/bladder control, diet/exercise requirements, etc.

I want to do heavy objectification play: furniture training (toilet, table, bathroom sink), human dildo/pleasure device, programmable robot. I want to be able to text him links to things I want and have them show up in my mailbox. I want to be able to text someone in the morning, “I want to cane you until you cry, bleed, or both” and he’ll say, “Yes, Ma’am. Shall I meet you at the studio or bring canes to your house?” I want my ownership to be an unfettered expression of my id.

When my fantasy really starts ramping up, I’m working that man like it’s my job. In fact, it IS my job. In exchange for covering all my expenses plus a little extra, for the duration of our agreement, I put aside all my other work and devote all my energy and attention into training him. Relentlessly.

Most of the time, I’m more realistic. I envision a short term contract — 30, 60 days — long enough for mutual commitment and assessment yet endurable enough to allow for a graceful exit if need be. I’d be fair too. At least at first. Our initial negotiations would include establishing of mutual limits — physical, emotional, financial, time, etc. We would also agree to a set of minimum expectations/requirements. Perhaps he’s available twice a week. Or X times a month. He would tell me what his  reward activities are as well as effective punishments. We’d discuss our intention and goals for this arrangement in more detail, outlining in realistic language what would constitute achievement/success/satisfaction as well as what failure/dissatisfaction/disappointment would look like.

The negotiation part would be important because I would have to have a workable situation in order to minimize if not outright avoid being told “no.”  I mean, I understand stuff gets in the way but I want to have my expectations managed well in advance. I want the parameters clear so that there’s no misunderstanding of what I’m offering or what I expect. Still, I’d need to have some spontaneity: my appetite is unpredictable and what I’m in the mood for one minute may very well be the last thing on my mind three hours/days later.

This is a genuine proposition. Whether it’s implementable or not is another story. In my head, it’s totally doable and really, really, really hot. Chemistry is obviously crucial, right? I mean, I have to want to be around you. (Or could I just blithely use/abuse someone I don’t care much for? Maybe.) You’ve also gotta have a wide range of what’s accessible to you: something like marks I can kinda work around, but claustrophobes or those whose time/body/money are closely managed/monitored by someone else probably aren’t the best candidates. You should also be in reasonable health and physical shape: I want you to fit in my gear and have the stamina to play at my level.

Parts of this probably read more extreme or out of reach than what reality might allow — but don’t let that dissuade you. Pitch me (by email — MTO at Troy Orleans dot com. No spaces. Put Express Your Id in the subject line.). Tell me what you have to offer. Tell me why you want this and why I should give you a shot. I want this just as much as you so you may find me more open to negotiation than you think.